So much here that feels relatable . I too am keeping my hair short because the alternative is too much to bare, the texture is like nothing I have ever seen and no amount of product helps!
I’m sorry to hear you have recurring side effects with ‘the pills’ despite a high level of fitness. And that steroid frenzy sounds horrendous. It’s horrible to have these side effects but I’m trying to adjust my thoughts about the pills as a necessary evil to something that is helping save me ( hopefully)!
Returning to work is a big step. I wasn’t prepared for how people might assume I’m ok now . They stop asking ( or caring less maybe ?) how I am. I’m good most days . Except when a teary moment comes at me from nowhere. Or the fog means I can’t think straight - not often but again comes out of nowhere. Or I’ve had a sleepless night due to joint pain, but have to get up and do a full days work. I only work 2-3 days a week thankfully. Definitely couldn’t cope with more .
Strangely though, I’m at peace with who I am. I am living in the moment more. I know what I want out of life , see it more clearly. Feel calm. I worry less, create small windows for relaxing and reading. Give myself permission to just be, and to do what I want, which often is simply nothing. Giving yourself time and space I’m sure you’ll discover who you are or want to be x
So much here that feels relatable . I too am keeping my hair short because the alternative is too much to bare, the texture is like nothing I have ever seen and no amount of product helps!
I’m sorry to hear you have recurring side effects with ‘the pills’ despite a high level of fitness. And that steroid frenzy sounds horrendous. It’s horrible to have these side effects but I’m trying to adjust my thoughts about the pills as a necessary evil to something that is helping save me ( hopefully)!
Returning to work is a big step. I wasn’t prepared for how people might assume I’m ok now . They stop asking ( or caring less maybe ?) how I am. I’m good most days . Except when a teary moment comes at me from nowhere. Or the fog means I can’t think straight - not often but again comes out of nowhere. Or I’ve had a sleepless night due to joint pain, but have to get up and do a full days work. I only work 2-3 days a week thankfully. Definitely couldn’t cope with more .
Strangely though, I’m at peace with who I am. I am living in the moment more. I know what I want out of life , see it more clearly. Feel calm. I worry less, create small windows for relaxing and reading. Give myself permission to just be, and to do what I want, which often is simply nothing. Giving yourself time and space I’m sure you’ll discover who you are or want to be x
thank you for sharing this with me! Itmakes me hopeful!